I am...

...lost...hurt...scared...numb...apathetic...trying to hang on...closed off...lying...shutting everyone out...tired...not sure what to do...useless...worthless...a failure.

I am having a hard time with God. Forgiving Him, maybe? Possibly. Avoiding, for sure. Afraid if I rely or trust in Him my problems still won't resolve and then I'll be even more hurt and lost and feel worse for not trusting Him.